Look at My Life

How long have I got in the hot light 'til the shine rusts? I've been thinkin' through the hard stuff Over light drugs like every night No, you don't need to come over 'Cause I'd crowd please, and I'm tired Slowly morphed into a poser Barely know her anymore Do I look high-functionin' or is my façade crumblin'? Oh God, don't actually answer me, Caroline But, oh well, look at my life Bet you can't tell, but it's kind of a bad time A new spiral every night Bawlin' my eyes out, no, but I'm so fine Yeah, I might just shut up and drive Hope I don't crash and blow out the headlights My nightmare actualized Got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right I just got to the party with the big shots and the Barbies Empty talk and talk and talk until my ears bleed He's holdin' a pill, he thinks that I should take one But I'll raise him to the whole bunch I'm kidding, God, he thinks I'm stupid What a gut punch, but then we go Downtown, there's no medicine, I'd spit out if it promises Slowin' down voices, don't want to hear a sound But, oh well, look at my life Bet you can't tell, but it's kind of a bad time A new spiral every night Bawlin' my eyes out, no, but I'm so fine Yeah, I might just shut up and drive Hope I don't crash and blow out the headlights My nightmare actualized Got what I, what I Maybe if I smile enough, I'll get away with givin' up I'll move across the country just to judge myself Like, just as much as I do when I'm sittin' here I miss my friends, I disappeared and haven't seen 'em in a year Oh God, what am I doin' here? But, oh well, look at my life (look at my life) Bet you can't tell, but it's kind of a bad time A new spiral every night (every night, I) Bawlin' my eyes out, no, but I'm so fine (fine) Yeah, I might just shut up and drive Hope I don't crash and blow out the headlights My nightmare actualized (actualized) Got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right (right) Ooh-ooh-ooh (right) I got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right (right) Ooh-ooh-ooh (right) Got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right